Part 3 of 3
Charlene had no idea that Jay needed porn addiction help. And she never would have thought that she'd be looking for porn addiction help either. Charlene believed she knew all about Jay's sexual behavior, but like most women there was a lot she didn't know.
When Charlene would hear about porn addiction help in the media she thought that was for men who are sex addicts, not her husband. That was until that Saturday 5 months ago. Jay was working overtime, the kids were spending the day with grandma, and Charlene decided it was a good time to do some spring cleaning. When she found some unmarked DVDs in a box in the office, she decided she should take a quick look at them before tossing them.
As she sat in front of the computer, she was horrified at what she saw. Jay had been saving porn videos on the DVDs. She was shocked and her mind raced to remember all the things about porn addiction she'd heard and ignored because that was for other wives' who's husbands look at porn. She went to Google and searched porn addiction help to find out what to do, but didn't find much help (Guy Stuff provides counseling for women too).
Jay got home and walked in as she was still searching. He could see she was upset, so he asked what she was doing. With tears in her eyes, she looked up at him and said searching for help with porn addiction. Before Jay could say anything, Charlene was screaming at him about how she couldn't believe he looks at porn. Jay angrily yelled back at her -- "You don't get it 'cause you're not a guy." Then he walked away.
They didn't talk about porn addiction again for 2 months. Charlene decided she'd just let it go. But of course it was on her mind almost all of the time. Whenever Jay was home alone she'd wonder if he was looking at porn. So she decided to see if she could catch him.
It became a cat and mouse game of hide and seek as Jay tried to keep it from Charlene and she sought to catch him again. He knew Charlene didn't like it. She'd get really upset about it when she saw he'd been looking at it again. They'd fight about it. She'd ask him to get some help. But he'd dismiss it and tell himself that she just didn't understand that all guys do it.
What's porn hurt he thought? Guys, we can easily rationalize our looking at porn and talk ourselves into a belief about it that's comfortable and not challenging, but also false. Porn hurts everyone, even you. Jay found that out one night when he was up late alone. His 8-year-old daughter came down stairs and saw what daddy was looking at (and doing).
The next day when Charlene asked him again to get some porn addiction help, he finally agreed. It was really embarrassing for Jay to admit that day that he needed help with porn addiction. But he'll tell you now that it was a lot more work keeping up the lie than it is now being the man he is today.
If you're struggling and need porn addiction help, learn something from Jay, stop lying to others and yourself, and get the help of counselor who knows how to stop porn addiction.